Saturday, January 31, 2009

Jan 31

Ok I have kind of hit a brick wall.

Yes I am still reading my Bible but I can't seem to find much in the way of discussion material. Don't get to discouraged though as soon as an idea hits me I will let you know but I think for now I am starting to feel like Moses during the fight with Amalekites and I need a few Joshuas to fight for some ideas and a few Aarons and Hurs to keep my arms lifted up so Joshua can keep on winning. (Exodus 17:8-15) So please if you are reading this even if you just say "Hey I am reading your blog" it would be much appreciated.

I am now also reading Mark in the New Testament. Which if you have read the Four Gospels, Matthew, Mark, Luke, and John, than you know they are basically the same thing just written from different points of view. In the beginning of every new book in my Bible they give a little background about the time period and the author, if they know who it is. But for some reason Mark unlike the other Gospel writers was not a direct disciple of Jesus. Most of his writings come from listening to Peter and Paul. So unfortunately this book has kind of two strikes against it for me and those are:

1)I have already read this information in Matthew. I am not one to pick up a book more than once, so this is a true test of my commitment to keep reading.

2)It isn't first hand knowledge so obviously some of the excitement is gone in the writing. Mark is just basically writing facts, he doesn't have the same passion as someone who saw all of the Miracles of Jesus first hand would have. Imagine yourself seeing a miracle happening, you would obviously tell everyone you meet and you would be excited and your voice would obviously convey that excitement. But if you didn't see it first hand and someone told you about it , sure you would be excited but you wouldn't have the same passion and conviction that you would have from the first hand account.

So please bare with me I am chipping away at this road block and we will both see the Promise Land soon.

Saturday, January 24, 2009

Jan 24

Last Sunday morning we had a wonderful Praise & Worship service at Church. I had gone down front myself to be prayed for and I kind of got selfish in demanding that I get my blessing that I felt I deserved. Now let me backtrack a little in saying I had decided that I was going to start tithing on a more regular basis than what I had in the past. And of course once I made the decision and actually took some action with it the devil came in to change my mind. I will admit that I didn't think I was going to tithe at all last Sunday but the Holy Spirit told me to look in my purse and I found a dollar bill and I new exactly where it was going. No it wasn't my 10% but I still believe God saw favor on me.

So now if we fast forward a little bit, I was at the altar being prayed for of course my prayer request sounded selfish in that I wanted to get my blessing, but what I wanted to say was that I wanted someone to help pray strength for me to continue to do what I had made my mind up to do and in doing so I knew that God would bless me and my decision.

Well then if we fast forward a little more, lets say to the evening Daniel called me on his way home from work to tell me that his parents had called him and wanted to know when we would be home that the had something for us. When I found out that they were coming from KC I thought miracle of miracles they had spent the day at the casinos, won lots of money and was coming to share. Daniel not being as strong of a dreamer or believer as myself said I doubt it, mostly the part about them winning at the casino, no doubt they would share if they had enough.

But any ways I get home from church ask Daniel what they gave us and he told me another pork loin from his mom's friend Kathy, my first reaction was we don't even know what to do with the last one. Upon asking where it was, I looked in the fridge and there laying on the top shelf is the huge tube of pork loin. I would say it was several feet long. I kind of felt like Moses in the desert when God turned his staff into a snake, I wanted to run from it.(Exd 4:3-4) Daniel said that he had already talked to his dad about cutting it up into pork chops and maybe a couple of roasts. Ok that I can handle but this thing was huge and kind of scary to a beginner cook as myself. (ok I have been cooking for 7 years but I still don't know much).

I will admit that it wasn't the blessing I was looking for but it is a blessing all the same and I will thank God everytime I eat it.

Today's Reading:
Exodus 4-5
Matthew 24-26

Monday, January 19, 2009

Jan 19

Today I read about Jesus and his disciples and the part that really got my mind to going is found in Matthew 17:1-13. The title in my Bible is "The Transfiguration" in short it is when Jesus took Peter, James, and John up a high mountain and they witnessed Jesus talking to Moses and Elijah.

The first thought I had was I wonder what Jesus, Moses, and Elijah talked about. It couldn't possibly be just a random conversation. Could it have been them giving Jesus encouragement or maybe telling him that the time is near and this is what to look out for?

Then my second thought was why Peter, James, and John. Jesus has lots of disciples what exactly made those 3 men stand out? Now I think he took Peter because of an earlier converstation that I read in Ch. 16:13-20 when Jesus quizzed the disciples about who he was and Peter said, "You are the Messiah, the Son of the Living God." vs 16 and Jesus replied with a blessing for Peter and told him that he was correct , changed his name and declared that he would now be known as the rock that Jesus built his church on.

But again to my original thought exactly what do three great men like Jesus, Moses, and Elijah talk about on top of a mountain?

Today's reading:
Matthew 13:1-30
Genesis 46-48

**Side Note I am a few chapters ahead in the New Testament readings and few chapters behind in the Old Testament**

Tuesday, January 13, 2009

Jan 13

If I was putting a title on any of these posts today title would go something like this:
Jacob the Baby Factory.

You ever notice how some women feel like that is all men think of them as, baby factories. Now it isn't so much now as it was lets say during the Women's Movement in the 70s and 80s (ok I wasn't born in the 70s but I have read my history books) and even well before that. Actually I guess it was in the 70s and 80s that women started to really prove that they were more capable of doing more than just having babies and families, but any ways the point is and trust me there is a point I promise. At least the times have gotten a lot better since Jacob roamed the earth.

In Genesis 29:31-30:24 it talks about Jacob and his children. Now if you don't know Jacob was in love with Rachel but was tricked by her father, Laban to marry her sister Leah first and then work even longer to finally marry Rachel. Well because God saw that Jacob loved Rachel more her, he provided Leah with children first and quite frequently I might add. But my point here is that there was so much sibling rivalry going on here for children and Jacob's love that eventually each sister gave their servants to Jacob to produce children when they couldn't. Now maybe it is because of the way these passages are written to just to show how many children he had but man this had to be a gentleman's paradise to know that at any time and any place these 4 women were at his mercy. I wonder if at times he had to be feeling like he was a "Baby Factory" and needed a break.

But that also brings me to another point in verse 30:1 Rachel became mad that she was childless and she demanded that Jacob give her a child, I am not sure I quite understand his response, because he got mad and said "Am I God? He is the only one able to give you children!" verse 30:2. I am thinking they obviously did not understand that it takes both male and female in the flesh and bone department to procreate. Or did God play daddy before Mary and Jesus? Surely not. But they obviously placed a lot of a woman's worth on whether or not she could have children.

Being childless like I am I can see the shame that Rachel felt and even Sarah. I try to do everything right but I still wrestle in myself that I must not be worthy enough or I must have done something wrong for God not to bless me with children. And there isn't a day that goes by that I don't pray for God to show me what I need to do in order to bless my husband with children. I not only want them for myself but I do feel like my barrenness is a reflection of my worth and I feel that is reflects badly on him too and I would sooner die then for my actions to shine badly on him.

Sunday, January 11, 2009

Jan 11

On Thursday I was supposed to read Genesis 20 thru 22, but I wasn't able to get to it until yesterday. Those chapters were talking about Abraham and Sarah.

Chapter 20 talked about Abraham betraying Abimelech as him and Sarah passed thru his land because Sarah was so beautiful that Abraham was afraid that Abimelech's men would kill him to get to Sarah. Of course God was watching over Abraham and Sarah and spoke to Abimelech in a dream telling him to give Sarah back to Abraham because it was wrong. Wouldn't you like to know when and I am sure it has happened that, God has spoken to someone on your behalf? I know I would. I am pretty sure there have been sometimes that I am pretty sure it was only because of God and not because of me but to know that he actually talked to someone in only the way that God can would be kind of cool.

Chapter 21 talks about the birth of Isaac. Now being a woman similar to Sarah in that I too have a barren womb the fact that she even had Isaac was a miracle in and of itself. I am not sure how old Sarah was but it states that Abraham was 100 so lets say she was at least well into her 80s or above, so other than God intervening it was next to impossible for her to conceive. So I can see why she was so overcome with joy that she was laughing as his birth. But what I don't exactly agree with is Sarah's attitude toward Hagar and Ishmael. Sarah is the one who let Abraham sleep with Hagar, so technically it is all her fault that Ishmael is even on the earth at all. So I am very glad that God saw favor toward Hagar and Ishmael and took care of them after they were turned away. I can only imagine how hard it was on Abraham to send them away, even if he didn't have any real feelings for Hagar but I am sure that he loved Ishmael with all of his heart and soul and to have to watch them walk away probably broke, I am sure that Abraham prayed for them everyday.

In Chapter 22 God tested Abraham's faith by telling him "Take your son, your only son—yes, Isaac, whom you love so much—and go to the land of Moriah. Go and sacrifice him as a burnt offering on one of the mountains, which I will show you." (verse 2) Can you imagine what was going thru Abraham's head, I am sure his heart skipped a beat, but he knew the whole time that God would provide something. Because as Abraham, Isaac, and his servants took out for the mountain and as they were leaving the servants to continue the journey on their own he even told them, "Stay here with the donkey," Abraham told the servants. "The boy and I will travel a little farther. We will worship there, and then we will come right back."(verse 5) or at least that is how I read it that he knew that God would hopefully supply an alternative, but Abraham was so obedient to God that he would sacrifice his own son. But I wonder if maybe Ismael was in the back of his mind on the whole journey.

But also what about Isaac who let his father tie him up and place him on the alter, you know that some where in the past he had seen enough sacrifices by his father that he had to start putting the pieces together that he was to be the sacrifice that God was going to provide that Isaac had asked Abraham about on the way to the mountain top in verses 7 & 8.

If you ever need a good example of putting all your faith in God that is probably one of the best ever.

Now to put a slight human element to it because I know that I think of all of these bible stories as super spiritual and almost not on a real people level. But can you imagine how Sarah reacted when she found out what happened if we know about it I am sure she found out about is somewhere along the way. Even if she wasn't told directly by Isaac or Abraham, but you know that Isaac told his friends and you know how stories get told and rumors are spun. Needless to say I am sure Abraham was in the dog tent for a while.

Today's reading is:
Genesis 27-28
Matthew 8:18-34

Thursday, January 8, 2009

Jan 9

Today I received in my email a devotion from Proverbs 21 ministries that kind of spoke a little to me. The scripture reference was Matthew 7:24-27. "Therefore everyone who hears these words of mine and puts them into practice is like a wise man who built his house on the rock. The rain came down, the streams rose, and the winds blew and beat against that house; yet it did not fall, because it had its foundation on the rock. But everyone who hears these words of mine and does not put them into practice is like a foolish man who built his house on sand. The rain came down, the streams rose, and the winds blew and beat against that house, and it fell with a great crash."

What speaks to me about that is the fact that here I am trying to read the Bible everyday for a solid year but this time I am trying to meditate on it a little more make that a lot more than have ever done in the past several attempts. I am not just sitting down and reading it like a book which eventually I will hit the parts that will get a little boring to me and I may not see the relevance to my life but if I keep reading and meditating and learn a little more maybe some day it will.

Also what is interesting is because I have recently had a very serious conversation with my husband about the state of our finances and I believe and know with every fiber of my being that we need to be better tithers but he sees it as throwing money away instead of being like Christ suggests in Matthew 6:19-20 of storing your treasures in Heaven. Plus I have always been taught that one way to show that you have complete faith in God is to pay your tithes. God really doesn't ask much of us but that little 10% of our first fruits that we bring into our homes. I am not going to push it with him because he is my husband and God has required of me to submit to him and I try to respectful of my husband's place as the head of my household, but as I ask this of him every year and I get the same reaction from him, (Its not that he is coming right out and saying no, he is basically saying that it will be more of hindrance than a blessing), it makes me wonder if the problems we have had with his job stability has to do with this area in not trusting God to take care and provide for us and God is trying to show us that we can not do this alone.

When I was going thru a rough patch in my previous jobs and new I deserved better like most people I turned to God for help and part of what I did was trying to tithe on a regular basis, but I made the mistake of not tithing first and trying to tithe my 10% with what I had left after paying bills and spending money on going out to eat and shopping and that put a real burden on my pocketbook, but this time I believe I have learned my lesson albeit the hard way but it was well received this time around. But any ways once I received my current job, which I love I then turned my tithe over with a very thankful and grateful heart and I know looking back that it was all God's doing. As a matter of fact I might have even gotten the job months sooner if I had had my mind and heart in the right place but like many people I had to get desperate for God. But I don't want to do that again.

Today's Scripture:
Matthew 6:19-34
Genesis 20-22

Sunday, January 4, 2009

Jan 4

Today I was reading about the Tower of Babel. Now for some reason I always thought that the tower was built so the people could reach heaven and that it made God angry and that was why he scattered and confused their tongue. But now as I read it the people I think just wanted a tall tower so that no matter where a person was they could see it, and that God got concerned as to how fast the human race was learning and working together so he either he was scared or decided to have some fun or I guess he wanted to put a stumbling block in their way so that they could continue to learn and try to overcome. Who knows but I have to admit that I think I was taught wrong and maybe that is where most people get confused or disheartened cause they were taught that God was angry a lot. I know I am really starting to look forward to what else I might have been taught that wasn't completely correct.

Also in Gen 11:9 it says that God scattered them abroad from that place, meaning Babel, upon the face of the whole earth. Now I don't know but imagine one moment you are talking, lets say English to your best friend in the village market and then the next moment you are in the wilderness talking and understanding Mandarin. Now do those people remember talking English and being in the market or was that kind of wiped from their memory?

Today's reading:
Matthew 4
Genesis 11-12

Saturday, January 3, 2009

Jan 3

Ok so I already have slightly failed at my new project. I honestly just read what I was supposed to have read on Jan 1 and 2 this morning. For those of you following along I will post the actual reading toward the bottom of each post.

Maybe I should explain that I have been on Christmas vacation since Dec 23 and I decided while I was off work I would actually clean my house so since Monday of this week that is been what I have been doing. Which it looks great by the way. But on Jan 1 and 2 I along with my family have been trying to empty my Grandmother's house that she has lived in since 1961. So Daniel and I have been rearranging our house to accommodate some of the new furniture we acquired.

But hey the assignment hasn't been a total loss I did get up this morning and read Genesis 1-7 and Matthew 1-3. So that is where I will try to start. I am not planning on using the blog as a platform to preach from that is not my intentions at all. It is mostly for my own benefit but I thought maybe I might say something or I guess type some thought that I have rattling in my head that might help someone else.

I started with reading Genesis and if you have read it you know that obviously it starts out talking about creation. Well as I read along I had several things strike me as Hmm I hadn't noticed that before.

For instance when God is making the Garden of Eden he made TWO trees the Tree of Life AND the Tree of the Knowledge of Good and Evil. And God told Adam to not eat of the Tree of Knowledge. What about the Tree of Life? What does it do? (Gen 2:9)

Also if you backtrack to Gen 2:8 it states that the Garden was planted in the East, where was God standing when that happened? Yes if you are in the United States we always no where east is but I always think of God being above the earth when he does things so he can kind of have a birds eye view of the land. (One of many questions to ask the Big Guy when I see him face to face)

On ward with the questions. Ok if Adam and Eve where the only people on Earth and then they had Cain and Abel where did their wives come from? (Gen 4)

Ok and the final question that really made me curious enough to check with several translations to make sure I was reading it correctly was who are the "Sons of God" that Gen 6:1-2 is talking about.

So if you have any more questions regarding what I have read so far please feel free to ask or even if you have comments or answers to the questions I posted.

The reading that was discussed for today's post is:
Genesis 1-7
Matthew 1-3